Hallowed voices in my head
They talk too much
They talk too loud
Separated by my own
Dialogue..split by secondhand reference
I'm on a pill
It keeps me stable
When I'm out of control
It eases my wires
Slow thought
Tapers the fires deep inside
As I go around lonely child
Poor soul.. I find what I can get
To ease the pain of waiting
When nothing is there to give
My psychosis surrounds me
In the theatre of a mind
That can't see..
Cut off from reality
Into instability
I sacrifice the mundane
For a trip
For a fantasy
I'm dying in a fantasy..
And I'll never get out..
Stuck on government benefits
the fantasy never ends
And it will surround me
Where I can't see..
My future..
shine on shine on like a Hoshi..
shine on and burn so bright
But never black out..
But I'm on these pills
They keep me from hyperventilating
They keep me sedate
Just the thing I need
Though there's one quick fix
I'd rather not go that way..
As chemicals in my bloodstream
Add an artificial effect
the natural beating of my heart
Is regulated
My blood flows at a normal pulse
Sometimes I give it check
By cutting myself
Opening up the book
And reading what is red
The blood, my life, a glass of wine
To make it thick..
The beating of my heart
Goes bang bang bang..
It's suppressed
By the pills I've registered
And without it
The force held back
Gets me into a complication
So I have no choice to stay
And my condition stable
I mourn from grief
Of each and every day
I am sedated..
Alchemy (by Seung Kim)
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